This day started like any other ordinary day. Little did I know it would be the best and worst day of my blogging life. At least I hope this was as bad as it gets. I don’t want to go through more of the same eek gads. I woke up, grabbed my coffee, checked a few emails, visited some friends blogs, grabbed my yogurt, and got Matilda. We did our morning ritual, nursing, playing with her Winnie the Pooh Bear, sang some worship music together then I laid her down for her nap. Sometime around mid afternoon I checked my email and something crazy was happening. Every time I checked my blog I’d have 2, 4, and sometimes 7 new Newsletter subscribers at one time. At first I didn’t think anything of it. But every time I checked there were more and more and more.
I knew I was on the home page of Yahoo! Shine the other day and it did spike and help me to get more blog traffic but I didn’t notice anything catastrophic, at least not in my mind. Let me change that last statement I just checked my stats INSANE traffic increase. THIRTY EIGHT times the usual amount. WOW.
But this was really odd. It continued throughout the day and is still happening as I”m writing this piece at about 9:45 PM Vegas time. I thought to myself, “Let me go check out Yahoo!. Sure enough my little 3 minute clip had over 400 comments. I said “Babe! look how cool! This must be what’s going on today. I was so focused at the number I had no idea what I was about see next would hit me as hard as the anvil dropping in the Wile E Coyote from the Roadrunner. My husband looking over my shoulder said ” Wow, these people don’t have anything nice to say.” “What?” I said. And there it was. I read things I wish I had never seen.
How my makeup is too dark, that I’m a liar, that we’re rich, that my tips sucked, someone was even bold enough to make fun of my daughter’s name. I mean it was pretty disgusting and it is still going on. I felt my blood boil and then a flood of emotions. “Confusion, frustration, “How could a simple video about what we did to save money make people flip out?”
After a while I had to stop reading they were just so awful. The problem with that is, once you’ve read them you can’t remove it from your head. I wanted so badly to just go off and say how rude, how obnoxious, how sick, how hateful, how ridiculous they were. I guess I’m saying it now but it’s my space so I’ll say it here and be done. Besides tomorrow is Sunday and I’m going to have to forgive every one of those nasty little comments if I want to enjoy the worship time at church.
The subscribers kept pouring in but so did the thoughts in my head. Finally I couldn’t take it. I yelled I told my husband ” What is wrong with people!? Are they so mean that they have nothing better to do than tear me apart? HOLY MOLEY all I did was say I cut back on a few things.
I realized that this is why Jesus said ” The poor you will have with you always” Now READ THIS CAREFULLY– I’m not talking about widows, children, or people who have suffered tragic events. I’m speaking of nasty people who only want to hate the world and drag everyone else down with them. then their bitterness takes root and they cannot succeed in life so they blame and attack anyone they can find. This time it just happened to be me.
I told Chad- My husband ” If I ever speak one day I will tell them they will never be in a good situation because they are mean, and rude, and selfish and it’s their own attitude that defeats them.” He said calmly, “Babe you can’t do that” I said ” Peter was passionate” He said yes, he cut a guy’s ear off and Jesus rebuked him, and then Peter had to watch Jesus walk away with another guy while he stood there rebuked”- “Do you want to be rebuked Lisa?” Point taken.
So I did vent on my own blog. I vented to my husband. And even though I think I”m a pretty tough woman I actually cried. Which really made me angry that I would allow cruel people hiding behind a keyboard to even effect me like that.
Why am I sharing this with you? I have no idea. Maybe so I can get it out in the hopes I can forget about it. Even though those dreaded comments will be around for THREE years. Yup you heard right THREE YEARS.- UGH
Even though I experienced the haters there were also a lot of wonderful new people visiting my blog. I’m thankful I have found so many new friends, new followers of my blog that is awesome. I chose to take the high road and tried so hard not to say how I really felt to any of them. Even the nut job who did a Zillow Search on my home to see how much we paid for it. Yes that really happened.
Just know in life, people are not always going to like you. They surely don’t always like me. I know you my followers do, but those people did not. And what do you do about it? You just move on.
My mom use to always say to me ” Lisa, you’re making a mountain out of a mole hill.” So I have decided instead of building a great mountain of unforgiveness, resentment, anger and frustration over their remarks, I will choose another road. Instead I will step on their little mole hill and use it to elevate myself , those I love and all of you to a higher level. I had a great friend who once said,”Lisa don’t roll in the mud with the pigs because you’ll only get dirty and the pigs will like it.”
I hope you don’t mind my little rant. I’ve never done this quite this way but I really wanted to share my heart. I’m a mom who loves her daughter . I love my husband and our life and I”m only trying to do anything I can to be a blessing to Matilda.
To all of my awesome friends who have given me so many encouraging kind words I appreciate you so much. Please know this is not a plea for more of the same. I just really wanted to vent and get it off of my heart before Sunday. And so I have.